These Are My Confessions (just when I thought I said all I could say)
I have a crush on you. I could ask you out, and move on with my life if you said no. Or, we could be friends! See, I don’t want to consider that you might not be attracted to me. I’m scared of rejection, so I’ve decided relationships should grow smoothly out of friendships.
When you have problems, I’ll be there for you. Night after night. Selflessly. I’ll tear down the jerks you date, and wait for you to realize how good I am for you- that only I will ever understand you.
You won’t want to hurt my feelings and I won’t ever force the issue. I’ll tell myself it’s because I “value our friendship.” Bit by bit, I’ll make you depend on me. You’ll think about how long it would take to build this kind of connection again. And in a moment of weakness, and loneliness, you’ll give in.
It’ll feel comfortable and natural. You’ll quietly revise your definition of love and try to be happy.
And sometimes, you will be.
Only the wistfulness in your gaze and the tiny pause before you say, “I love you,” will hint that this wasn’t the ending you’d hoped for.
